Moving!
I've moved! Please visit my new site at http://hcitang.org/, and my blog at http://hcitang.org/blog/.
I think posts will remain here for posterity, but I've mirrored them all at the new place.
Days and the times of Tony Tang. Each entry is written in one minute to prevent complete and utter boredom on the part of the reader.
C: i am lying in bed with the blinds drawnand blankets over my headi'm pretending i'm in a vacuumnot the roomba kind of vacuum. the black hole varietyme: why are you in a vacuum?C: i don't knowi'm just in onesound and sight depravationsight is a bit hampered by my laptop lightbut it's close to dark as i guess i can get itme: you know, you're supposed to go nuts if you go into sensory deprivationC: yeah. i knowme: are you trying to induce that?C: yesme: greatanyway, when you are done, are you coming to school to work out and take me home?
I admit that this section has received more thoughtful consideration more frequently and more consistently than any other section in the entire dissertation. I thought about it when things were going well, and I thought about it when things were going poorly—a testament to what the PhD challenge was for me: an intellective one, certainly, but also an emotional one. I now see those times, the good ones and the bad ones, differently—they were all things that helped to prepare me to become the person that I am and will become. And—as challenging as many of those moments were—I am grateful for them, and for the people that saw me through them.And then my dedication page:
Cheryl, my best friend, my partner—thank you for the long nights of listening to me whine and complain, for sharing in the highs and lows, and always trying to support me in the ways you best knew how.
Sid, my supervisor, my biggest critic, and the one that best knew how to make me into a better researcher—thank you for pushing me the way you did. It was undoubtedly challenging, but helped make me into the researcher I am today: one who is more thoughtful, critical, and careful.
Carman, my friend, my colleague, my mentor—thank you for your friendship, your thoughts, and the countless hours of reading drafts, commenting on them, and for talking me through the hardest parts.
My committee, Kelly and Peter, were immeasurably helpful at each critical time. Thank you in particular to Kelly for helping me to frame my thoughts, and to help me find my confidence in my own analytic ability.
To my local “research family,” Joel, Nelson, Mike, Leah, Karyn, Kirstie, Karen, Nicole, Meghan, Garth, Rock, Matt and Ian, thank you for your companionship and support: you helped me ride through the worst of times, and pushed me up onto the saddle when I was too bashful during the best of times.
To my remote research family, Petra, Nelson, Mark, Gregor, I have appreciated your support and friendship—it will be fun continuing to make a splash in the research world with you.
Saul, Sheelagh, and Joanna, my life-supervisors, you have been invaluable as life mentors, helping me to understand my needs, my goals, my strengths and my weaknesses.
I thank and acknowledge NSERC, NECTAR, and UBC for financial support.
To my volleyball family, Jill, Becky, and Heather, thanks for keeping life light, and for helping to remind me that there can be important things outside of work ... and to not take life too seriously. Thank for helping to keep me sane when the research threatened to drown me.
Finally, to my buddy and brother Jonathan: you are the best friend a guy could ask for. I can't count the times I needed to chill out, and you were there. Whenever I think about the possibility of having done this PhD elsewhere, I can't help to think where our relationship would be. To have been able to spend the last five years growing up with you as I went through this challenge is a blessing that I cannot put into words.
For my mother Eva, and my father Tom.
Thank you for sharing in my dreams.
"You don't give up, you just kind of give in." - PhD candidate near completion
"The PhD process is the exact opposite of the therapeutic process. In the therapeutic process, you set up an environment of non-judgementalism, and allow for self-discovery through dialogue. In a PhD, you are thrust into an environment with existing ways of scholarship and thinking, and your work is immediately (and often harshly) critiqued against existing work." - Counseling psychologist
KP: Well, remember: everyone poops.I guess that's better than imagining them without their clothes on.
T: I find I am pretty geeky. Even for geeks.K: Try being down here. You'll realize either you're not as geeky as you think, or you'll be like, "I'm finally home." Soon, you'd find Transformer bumper sticker on your car.T: Really?K: Oh yeah. Transformers bumper stickers are far more common than is comfortable.T: Is that why all the women are single here?K: Disappointment at every turn.